On Showering - March 17, 2003, 2:49 am

I just took one of those showers that feels like a
waterfall. i opened up all my windows because it's the
warmest day of the year so far. my thoughts are always
more vivid when its humid.  and also because my cohort
i.v. thinks it smells. (febreeze doesn't cover up
spilt bong water.) i turned off the lights and made it
hot. my nose is as clogged as the drain so my feet
took a bath and i started shooting my snot everywhere.
i've got one of those colds that can't decide which
side to hang out on and makes you turn over constantly
like a rotisserie chicken. (those always look so
fucking good. turning around and around like a car on
a rotating pedestal so you get to see all the shiny
parts.) for years i always faced away from the shower
head. at 15 i was in a shower with a guy for the first
time and he told me i was doing it wrong. since then
i've turned around. so i washed my hair then my face
and started reverse-sniffing as hard as i could. a few
months ago i started getting these urges to just
expunge whatever i could physically. to breathe out
hard. to piss harder. to spit. as if all the things i
want out of my head can be thrown out in the form of
body fluids. well, they can't. but it sure feels nice
to get them out anyway.